Day 158 The Perfect Mom Project

It’s Not Easy

 by Five for Fighting

I can't stand to fly

I’m not that naive

I'm just out to find

The better part of me

I'm more than a bird: I’m more than a plane

More than some pretty face beside a train

It's not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry

Fall upon my knees

Find a way to lie

About a home I'll never see

It may sound absurd: but don't be naive

Even Heroes have the right to bleed

I may be disturbed: but won't you concede

Even Heroes have the right to dream

It's not easy to be me

Up, up and away: away from me

It's all right: You can all sleep sound tonight

I'm not crazy: or anything:

I can't stand to fly

I'm not that naive

Men weren't meant to ride

With clouds between their knees

I'm only a man in a silly red sheet

Digging for kryptonite on this one way street

only a man in a funny red sheet

Looking for special things inside of me

It's not easy to be me.

If you took the words from this song and exchanged the words heroes, men and man with the words moms, and mom you would have my new Mom theme song. As I listened to my middle daughter tell me yesterday that I was not buying the right food or enough food when I went to the store, I tuned her out. I have lost all interest in trying to satisfy her. I explained to her at the time, that she has no idea how hard it is to make menus and grocery lists and on top of that please everyone. Somewhere in all of the list making and grocery shopping each week I die just a little. I feel like I am not now or have I ever truly lived up to my potential, and now, apparently I am not good at grocery shopping. Where will I go from here?

I did tell my wonderful daughter that she was going to make the grocery list and do the grocery shopping this week. I am done being kicked around about the food. Maybe her roaming the store, trying to make the grocery money stretch enough to cover the whole list will be a good lesson. It is not as easy as it looks, and it is not a lot of fun either. Maybe she pictures me jumping on the back of the cart and yelling weeeeeeeee, as I go down each aisle. I know from what she tells me that I also do not listen to her when she gives me suggestions.

Well honey, I QUIT!!

Good luck to you in your new capacity of Family Grocery Guru! I have dreams and goals that do not include grocery shopping, so now is my chance. It really is not easy being a mom.