I Do Care

I know it seems like I do not get it, or that I am not sensitive to what you are going through but I do care. Nothing is more important to me than your happiness. I long for you to feel loved and cared about and safe. There is one glitch though…I am who I am and I will always be this way.

I speak my mind. I say things that you find difficult or insulting, but that should not surprise you after all this time. Sometimes I am right and sometimes I am wrong, but I say what I say because…I love you and I do care.

I will always be on your side. You will see me as not on your side because I am saying things that feel wrong or inappropriate, but in order to be what I am to you, I must be honest. I appreciate you being honest about your feelings as well, I like that because your feelings matter to me because…I love you and I do care.

Somewhere between your feelings and mine is a middle ground. I will try to open my eyes and see your side more clearly, but right now it is hard because, I do care and I am worried. That is also part of who I am. I worry about your safety and well being. I worry you will be hurt more or taken advantage of. I worry that you will trust something or someone and it will fall apart and hurt you more than you hurt now. I worry because…I love you and I do care.

Please know that I am here. I cannot promise to see everything the way you do, but I can promise that I will always love you and I will always be ready to defend you. I cannot promise to always say or do the right thing, but I can promise to try. One thing you must know is that even on my worst day I say what I do because…I love you and I do care.